Birthday Spanking Week (Part 2)

(Read Part 1 Here)

J said I was allowed to get dressed to go to dinner, but he was deciding what I would wear. He picked out a wrap around skirt and a tank top. Nothing underneath. Sandals on my feet. We walked to a small family owned Italian place just down the street.

While we were waiting for our food, J took my hand and simply said, "Next Monday."

"What's next Monday?"

"We start your reminder spankings again. You go back to being held accountable. We go back to our way."

"Oh," was all I could say.

J asked me if I did not want to (which is always an option I have).

"It's not that," I explained, "I'm just so out of practice, it makes me nervous."

J reassured me, as he always does, that he would never push me too hard, too fast. He knows my limits and he knows ME.

And then with a chuckle, he said, "Besides, after the next couple of days you won't be so out of practice."

Gulp!

I always wonder if anyone ever overhears us when we're discussing spankings in public. We are aware of who's around us and we speak in low voices, but you never know who is eavesdropping. I can only imagine what they would be thinking if the overheard the conversation we just had. Reminder spankings??? What??? lol.

On the way back to the house, J had me turn my skirt so that the slit was in front. You couldn't really see much, but if you were looking closely when I took a step, the slit opened just enough so that I was totally exposed for half a second. J kept walking backwards, in front of me, so that he could watch. It made my face turn red, but also made me giggle.

The second J opened the door, he said "Clothes." And I stripped once again.

I watched as J retrieved the bag from the living room. He pulled out my collar and fastened it around my neck. He then attached the leash. He started reminding me of many of the things we used to do, games we played, S/M stuff, D/s stuff, DD stuff. As he was telling me, he was leading me around the house. I was dripping wet.

When we got to the end of the hall, he led me into the master bedroom with the big 4 poster bed. I saw the straps attached to each post. J laid me spread eagle on the bed and put my wrists and ankles in the straps. He grabbed a leather slapper that I hadn't noticed, from the dresser, and started gently slapping my pussy. He gradually increased the speed and intensity until I was squirming against the restraints. Then he abruptly stopped. I asked him if I could please cum. He said no.

He uncuffed me and led me back to the living room, straight into a corner. He told me I needed to think about the events of the past day and the things we discussed. He wanted to make sure I was ready to start again, since we've only been half-assing it for the past several months. My mind always wanders when I'm standing in the corner. I have a hard time focusing when I'm just standing there doing nothing. But this time I was able to concentrate and I did think about everything we talked about and did. It's nothing new, we were just out of practice. We both already know we like it that way, so what was there to think about?

After 15 minutes in the corner, J called me to him. We talked for hours for the rest of the evening about everything and as usual we're on the same page.

(to be continued...)

Punished for Lack of Submission

We had another night alone, last night, since my brother spent the night out. J didn't waste any time telling me we needed to discuss something. Uh oh.

He led me into the bedroom and we sat down on the bed, facing each other. J said that he realizes with my brother being here I've had virtually no spanking, so he's been lenient. My motivation level is way down, which I'm getting a pass on right now, but my submission level is also down. Not that I'm being all disrespectful, but I have been consistently turning J down for sexual things. And that is a big no no...something we agreed on a long time ago. I mostly blame it on my brother being here, but we have had plenty of quiet sex with people in the house before, and I know it and J knows it. It's just an excuse and it's solely due to me being lazy and not "feeling like it".

As I've said in the past, even when I'm not in the mood, once we start anything sexual I get in the mood in real quick! Like 99.9% of the time. And I'm always glad we did it. That's one of the reasons J and I agreed that unless I was not feeling well or was in some way distressed, I would not refuse any of his sexual advances. And it's worked out great!

Except part of it working well is me getting reminder spankings multiple times a week and pussy spankings once a week. It helps me stay motivated in day to day life, and sexually with J. And we haven't been able to stay on our regular spanking schedule because my brother has been staying here.

Since we had a night alone, J told me I was going to get a pussy spanking. He said it was going to be a punishment, for lack of submission, but since I was so out of practice he would do it more like one of our reminder spankings. I almost cried right there! I haven't had a real spanking there in months! And I recently shaved, so I didn't even have any hair as a cushion!

I slowly undressed and got into position. There was no warmup and J swatted me with his hand a few quick sting-y times in a row. I could not hold still and was squirming all over the place. I thought J was going to have to get the spreader bar, but instead he propped my legs up in a way that I couldn't close them. I still had a hard time staying still. J spanked every inch of my pussy, he spread my lips and spanked the insides of them, and he spanked my clit. I could tell it was light but it sure didn't feel light!

The entire time J reminded me of our agreement. He reminded me that I gave him my pussy and told him he could have access to me whenever he wanted to. He asked me if I was still happy with our agreement. Yes! Of course!

J continued with the spanking.

Afterwards I was led to the corner, where I've only stood once or twice in the past several months. It felt strange. J told me to stand there and think about the conversation we just had and the reason I just got my pussy spanked.

The 15 minutes in the corner seemed like 2 hours. J finally called me back into the bedroom. He asked me how I felt. I sort of laughed and said "like I want to fuck your brains out!" J laughed too and we slid back onto the bed and I got to do just what I wanted!

Temporary Spanking Privacy

My brother is still staying with us, but he's away for a few days, so we finally have some privacy.

It seems like my brother was out the door for half a second before J said, "Ok, get in the bedroom and take your pants off."

I did as told, half excited and half nervous, because I knew what was coming.

J spanked me for what seemed like hours. He said he'd be "gentle" since I hadn't been spanked in awhile. He only used his hand, but his idea of gentle and my idea of gentle are definitely not the same!

During the spanking J lectured me and let me know that even though we were way off schedule, we were still very much in a DD type situation. He made sure to tell me that I should still be getting my daily to-do list completed, and just because my brother is here is no excuse to slack off. He said he knows it's harder for me to stay motivated without the reminders, and he has been keeping that in mind. But I am expected to try my hardest.

After the spanking, J put me in the corner for about 5 minutes, though it seemed like an eternity. He told me to think about why I was just spanked. He told me to use it to stay motivated for the times when he can't spank me. He then informed me that I was to stay naked for the rest of the evening. I'm just glad it's not cold! He said he really missed seeing me displayed for him for a whole night. J loves when I walk around the house naked. He says it's like a living piece of artwork. lol

My brother comes back on Sunday night, but we will have a fun weekend while he's gone!

4 Days of Spankings, so far

My ass is very sore from being spanked 4 days in a row. I have one more day of spanking tomorrow and then J will decide how we will proceed next week. The spankings have increased in intensity throughout the week, so I'm looking forward to the break this weekend.

I have been getting my to do lists done, but it's been a struggle; I'm just barely motivated, and find myself having to rush to get things done before I have to be in bed.

It has been nice having everything finished each day. I can go to bed knowing the house is clean and I can start the next day fresh, without anything hanging over my head.

After my spankings, J has been sending me to the corner. I am supposed to think about how these reminder spankings are keeping me motivated, and all the reasons we choose to live this way. I have a really hard time with that. My mind wanders almost instantly. And I end up thinking about everything except for what I'm supposed to be thinking about.

I have one more pussy spanking left tomorrow. That hasn't been too bad, because I've been getting a 1 day break in between. The last one for the week is tomorrow, and it'll probably be the most severe of the week, since J will want the reminder to stick with me until the next time I get a pussy spanking.

J texted me in the middle of the day today and told me to masturbate. At first I felt like I didn't have time, but it turned out to be a welcome break in my day. And who doesn't like having orgasms? lol.

I see J embracing his role again, and it makes me proud and happy to know that he's so comfortable and natural doing what's best for us.

Back to our Spanking Routine, day 1

Promptly at 6pm, J instructed me to go to the bedroom and take off my clothes. He had already arranged many of our implements on the bed. He was clearly ready to start back up with our version of DD.

Once I was face down, J started with a brief lecture. He reminded me that I am to stay motivated to achieve my daily goals and complete my daily to do list. And if I do not, there will be consequences. He started spanking me gently, due to my not having been consistently spanked for several months. He continued the lecture saying that when he holds me accountable, he finds that he is more motivated and holds himself at a higher standard. So it is very important that we stay on track.

He also reminded me that whining will not be tolerated. If I whine, J will make sure to find something else for me to do with my mouth (with an option to also spank me).

J increased the speed and intensity of the spanking, and repeated the lecture a few more times. My ass was definitely sensitive and I was squirming and fussing. At one point J used his hand to spank me really quickly one right after the other on one cheek, and then the same on the other cheek. It made me feel a bit like a child; that's usually the way I imagine a parent spanking their kid. But I guess if I act like a child by whining, I should be treated like one.

Once J decided I had enough for the first day, he repeated the lecture and asked me if I understood (yes). I counted the last 10 swats out loud.

J then positioned me on my back, across his lap, where he had good access to my pussy. He went over my original agreement with him to never deny him sexually, unless I was ill or injured. Some people may think that might be extreme, but it really works for us. J is not demanding, and anytime I'm not in the mood, but I say yes anyway, it ends up being enjoyable and I'm glad I didn't turn him down.

He then proceeded to spank my pussy with his hand, a leather strap, and a wooden ruler he sanded down smooth, just for this purpose. He also spent some time playing with my clit. He would rub it for a few seconds and then spank it for a few seconds. It really hurts when he spanks my clit, but J always seems to know just how much I can take.

When my pussy was sufficiently pink, I was sent to the corner to think about the spankings I had just received and the reason for them.

After standing in the corner for about 10 minutes, J called me to him. He already had a pillow waiting for me (how nice!). He guided me down to my knees and placed his rock hard cock in my mouth. He also positioned a full length mirror next to us, because he wanted to watch. I tried to put on a good show for him.

I took a quick shower to rinse all the cum off of me and refresh myself. I get so tired after a spanking.

Motivation & Consequences

J and I talked about consequences tonight. Well he mostly talked (and spanked) and I mostly listened. J asked me if I feel more motivated. I'm not sure motivated is the right word, but I definitely make sure my things are done every day.

I notice that when I'm thinking about not completing my to do list, my first thought is that I know I'll get spanked for it. I say things to myself like, "It won't be so bad." But I've not yet had a punishment spanking since the most recent time we started our version of DD. I know the maintenance spankings are pretty bad, I don't really want to know what a more severe spanking would be like.

Ultimately I decide to complete my list and not find out what a punishment spanking would be like.

I haven't had any corner time in a few weeks. The corner we normally use has been occupied by some boxes of stuff that we need to move to storage. So J has been skipping that part. I can't say I feel any differently about things without the corner time. I know it's supposed to be time to reflect, but I usually just stand there, bored and wondering how much longer I have to stand there. So I haven't missed it.

Since we are talking about corner time, I thought I would comment on another section from the article of unknown origin. (AG = Article Guy)

AG is a big fan of corner time. He requires his wife to be nude while in the corner, which is essentially what J does. Although J does let me wear a robe (untied) if I am chilly.

AG says the minimum amount of corner time should be 10-15 minutes for maintenance, and 20-30 for punishments. J usually only makes me stand in the corner for 5 minutes or less. I get bored standing there and usually my mind drifts to other things that aren't related to the spanking I just received.

AG's reasoning for the length of time is that he says there are cycles of thought. He says his wife might first go through boredom and anger, and only after that will she be able to focus on what got her put in the corner. I definitely get the boredom thing, but I'm not sure I'd ever feel angry.

AG says it is "more effective if you physically place your wife in the corner". I would agree with that. There's something more dominant about J leading me to and placing me in the corner. The same with removing me from the corner when my time is up.

I'm sure if I was getting a punishment spanking, J would require me to stand in the corner for a longer period of time. But let's hope I don't find out anytime soon!

I hope you all have a good weekend and try not to get in trouble!

Monday's Maintenance

J brought out one of the big wooden paddles today, which immediately sent my belly into flip flops. I hate those wooden paddles.

He warmed up my ass with his hand and then switched to the paddle. J said he wanted to make sure that it was still effective and since I was more "in practice" now with spankings, I should be able to handle a harder paddling. I guess I handled it ok.

After the spanking and time in the corner, we talked about the effectiveness of the maintenance. J and I both agree it is working to keep me motivated. My to do lists have been completed every day and that makes me very happy, which makes J very happy.

He mentioned that if I can stay motivated, submissive, and can complete my list over the weekend, we may switch to twice weekly maintenance in the next week or so. My ass says YES! But I have a little bit of fear that if I don't get that reminder I might slack off. We will see how it all works out.

I've been reading a lot of other spanking/discipline blogs and I sometimes find myself nodding in agreement with the thoughts or comments of the poster. I am seeing bits of myself in many of them. I see a lot of people trying to practice some form of DD who have the same struggles with consistency that we have had in the past. I wonder if we are alike in other ways. I wonder how much like me the poster is in real life.

At the same time, I'm also finding a lot of spanking blogs that are fiction or professional models. That makes me feel very much alone. Like I am the only person who is like this in real life.

I guess it doesn't matter as long as it makes me happy and it works for my relationship dynamic with J.

Back to routine

Our friends left late on Monday, so the maintenance J was promising me all weekend didn't happen at the previously scheduled time. Normally he would just leave it cancelled, which is what I expected would happen this time. Instead he told me it would be rescheduled for Tuesday.

I was wondering if J would forget about the rescheduled spanking, but he didn't. Tonight after work he made sure to take care of my maintenance spanking. I have another one schedule for tomorrow (Wed) and another one for Friday. We've never done 3 a week for multiple weeks before. I'm not sure how that frequency will work for us, yet, as we keep getting interrupted.

J wants me to start posting pictures and short video clips on the blog. I am pretty nervous about that. I am self conscious about my body for one thing, as I'm sure most women are. Also, it's going to be my red ass out there for the whole world to see.

J practiced tonight with different angles of the camera. This made for a spanking with more breaks than normal, to allow for camera adjustments, but I didn't mind. After my spanking, I was told to stand in the corner to think about what I needed to accomplish this week and what would happen if I didn't. I think I was only in the corner for about 3 minutes.

I haven't been permitted to wear pants since I was spanked tonight. So far the longest I've been denied any bottoms is 18 hours. Tonight it's only been 8 hours, so not too bad. I am allowed to wear pants after I get out of bed tomorrow morning. Since it is chilly tonight, J let me wear a robe, untied to keep warm.

We were talking earlier tonight about our good friends that were here this weekend. I sometimes wonder if they would have some interest in our version of DD. I would like it if they did. I always wish for someone to share this with.

Spanked again??

Tonight around 4:45 I got a text from J asking me if I had finished my list from yesterday. There were a few things I didn't get to, so I replied and told him "not all of it". His text back to me had the following words "Be in the bedroom with your pants off when I get home." Yikes.

I just got spanked yesterday and J has scheduled another maintenance for tomorrow. I wasn't really planning on being spanked today, too!

When he got home I was waiting in the bedroom. I usually greet him at the door, so I felt awkward waiting for him alone in another room. He came into the bedroom, kissed me, and then guided me onto the bed, face down.

He said everyday after work he wants to see my list, and if anything is not completed, we will deal with it immediately. He also mentioned that if it's a maintenance day, I will be spanked twice.

After my lecture, he used his hand and that stupid ruler thing from the trade show to spank me. I thought the spanking was hard and thorough, but J later said it was neither.

After I was spanked, J told me to stand in the corner. That is probably my least favorite thing. I get bored just standing there. Today he put my list in front of my face and had me hold it there while I was in the corner. My mind still drifted.

J seems to be stepping back into his role, and I am trying to step back into mine. I am back and forth with wanting to be spanked and not. Is that common with any of you?

I really like being held accountable. I am sometimes worried that it puts too much pressure on J, though.

We had some fantastic sex tonight, which is always a nice side effect of our version of DD.

Tomorrow is another maintenance day. But the good news is, my to do list is finished for today!

Maybe he is reading the blog...

I'm thinking maybe J is reading the blog and just not mentioning it. Either that or we are just feeling the same way right now.

We had our 6pm appointment, which, as I suspected included me getting spanked. Right at 6, he told me to go into our bedroom. He came in a few seconds later and told me to strip from the waist down.

Once he had me face down on the bed, he alternated spanking me with his hand and with this ruler thing we got for free at a recent Trade show. It's made of thin wood and it's very light, which makes it sting-y.

I wasn't spanked for very long, J noticed outloud that my butt was "out of practice". During the spanking J said he thinks things are better around our house when I have regular maintenance. So we are going back to that. I don't know what our regular schedule will be, but this week we're doing it on Thursday.

J said he hopes one of these times we start our version of DD it will stick. It's much better when I'm motivated.

I didn't say this to him, because I sometimes feel like I'm trying to control things from the "bottom" and I don't want to do that, but I feel like I need some training. I am out of practice and half of me wants to fight this. But the other half of me likes things better when I am not so lazy. I love having my To Do list done every day with time to spare for fun. I just can't seem to accomplish that on my own, with no real consequences if I don't get things done.

I think after awhile J will be able to be lenient again because I will be more interested in getting things done, I'll be "better trained". I am afraid that I need J to be strict beyond his comfort level. I'm also afraid that he will focus too much on the submission part (especially sexually) because that's the part he likes best. But I really need the discipline, too. I think.

The thing I think I need is also the thing that makes me the most nervous. Are you other spankos that way too?

After my spanking and lecture, J had me stand in the corner. I had my shirt on the whole time, with only my jeans and underwear off, and he had me remain that way. I was supposed to think about everything J said about starting back up with maintenance, receiving discipline, and resuming my submissive role once again.

I was only in the corner for about 5 minutes, and my mind kept drifting most of that time. So I didn't really get to focus on what J wanted me to. I guess that's sort of what I'm doing now.

After the corner, I was sitting in a chair, across from J, still naked from the waist down. He spread my legs open with his legs and held them open. I felt so completely exposed. He didn't do anything, just looked at me.

He eventually let me put my underwear back on, but I am still pantsless.

My brother is coming to stay with us, for I don't know how long. He says 1 night, but that could mean 2 weeks. So I don't know if that's going to kill this attempt at our version of DD before it even starts. We will see.

Weekend

My Friday spanking wasn't so bad. J felt that I had done really well all week so he kinda took it easy on me. I was spanked with his hand and with a wooden paddle, but not for very long. I was led to the corner afterwards and was there for about 5 minutes. I know I am supposed to think about my actions and my discipline and the positive benefits it is having, when I am in the corner. I have a hard time doing that, though. My mind tends to wander to other things.

We had a mostly uneventful weekend. We did have some fantastic sex, we have both been feeling supercharged lately in that department.

I got a few swats today (Sunday) for putting myself down. J hates when I do that so he spanked me for it. It wasn't a lot of swats but they were quick and sharp and they stung!

Earlier this evening he was looking for a school uniform skirt for me to wear. Not a school girl costume, necessarily, he was more interested in something like a skirt from an actual school uniform store. He likes the idea of me being more easily accessible to him, both for play and any necessary discipline.

He told me he wants me to meet him at the door when he gets home from work tomorrow wearing only my robe, collar, and leash. I'm not sure exactly what he has in mind. We have a busy evening planned tomorrow, so I don't know what we'll have time for.

Short One

J got home really late tonight, so I did not get my wednesday spanking. He didn't get home until after 9pm and there was not enough time.

He did have me stand in the corner with my pants down and my shirt pulled up while he got ready for bed. While I was standing there he asked me if I like having more structure. I definitely do.

He apologized for not having the time to spank me tonight but told me I would get spanked tomorrow to make up for it. I am a bit bummed about that because that means I will be spanked 2 days in a row. I wanted to just skip it, but J says that is not an option.

The Second Day

Monday night we discussed my earlier spanking. I felt encouraged by it and J did too. He told me I was going to be spanked daily for the week. He was fairly gentle on Monday because my butt had not been spanked for so long.

I can't say I was looking forward to being spanked again on Tuesday, but I did feel glad it was going to happen. I felt glad J seemed to be really taking control this time. With very little input from me.

(For anyone who doesn't know, I can veto anything at any time if I do not feel right about it. J and I are in an amazing and very trusting relationship and have been together for many years. We know each other well and love each other deeply. There is something about my chemical make up that craves structure and discipline in my life. I work better that way and am always so much happier. But it takes work and time and sometimes J and I don't have either.)

I got so many things done on Tuesday. I cleaned the living room, dusted the whole house, changed the filter in the shower, did the dishes, planned dinner, and a few other little tasks that needed to be done. I also got a workout in. And I still had spare time. I don't know how that happened - I'm usually scrambling for time to get things done and I have barely been doing anything for the past several weeks. I have a problem with laziness. J and I decided that I have to have certain things completed before I can turn on my computer. That has really been helping.

Tuesday's spanking ended up being semi-mild and was only a hand spanking. J then led me to the corner where I stood for what seemed to be 15 minutes. Afterwards I knelt in front of him and thanked him for spanking me. I really do appreciate that he takes the time and effort to help give me structure. I might not have mentioned this before, but I asked for this. I brought it up the first time we talked about it and most of the times since. This is the first time that J has taken the lead.

We check in with each other every day to make sure we both still want this and that everything is still feeling right.

It feels very right.