Back on Schedule

So J told me today that it was time for me to get back on a schedule.

"What kind of schedule?"

He started with "6pm spanking"

I waited for him to say Monday, Wednesday, and Friday, because that was our schedule before.

But he continued with "every day."

Then he added, "We have a lot of catching up to do."

Eek! But he's right, I do need to get back on a regular schedule. Not just with spanking, but with everything else in my life, too. We got so busy this summer and got far away from schedules and rituals. I've been a total slacker with chores and daily tasks that need to be done.

I just can't seem to be productive unless I know there are definite consequences. Lucky for me, J is willing to provide those consequences.

We also agreed (long ago) that I would submit to J sexually. Anytime I "don't feel like it", J reminds me of our agreement. And every time, I'm glad I was reminded because I always enjoy it and feel happy that we did it. That may sound weird to some people, but it's just how I'm wired. (And I always have veto power over the whole thing if it's not working for me.)

J also added that to get me used to our arrangement, I'll be performing orally on him every day following my spanking.

I feel like J is more than ready to step back into his role of expecting me to do what I say I'm going to do, and providing the consequences when I don't. He can be strict sometimes, but it works for us.

I don't know if he's going to incorporate things like corner time, bedtimes, and other punishments back in. I expect he will. It feels like I haven't stood in a corner for eons. J didn't specifically mention pussy spankings either, but I think it's assumed that they will be resuming, as well.

I see so many relationships falling apart all around me, but J and I remain strong. I think a lot of it has to do with our version of DD. A lot of my friends don't seem to communicate very well with their spouses. J and I communicate clearly and openly all the time, and I attribute much of that to our version of DD.

I'm happy we found something that works great for us, even if we do stray away from it sometimes.

My pants have been taken from me

So I'm sitting here with just a shirt on. J came home from work tonight, and immediately asked to see my pussy. I shaved today, so I'm freshly bald. As he was inspecting me, he gave me a few stingy swats on my clit. He then spent some time pinching my clit between my lips, using his thumbs. Ouch!

I can tell J is ready to get fully back into the swing of things. We've been a little lax lately; we've both been busy and tired. It's hard to keep our appointments when we're stressed out.

I always have mixed feelings about that. It's so easy for me to slip back into laziness. It's so comfortable and nice there. So I think to myself, I really don't want J to be strict with me. But then I get mad at myself for wasting a day and not doing anything. And I think to myself, J really needs to be strict with me.

It's not just laziness with myself, I get lazy and neglect J's needs as well. And I hate when I do that. So I'm craving a spanking, but also dreading it at the same time.

J had some work to do in the garage, and when he comes back in, he'll be spanking me. It's a reminder day. I'm not looking forward to the act itself, but I am looking forward to the motivation boost.

I don't know if J's planning on spanking my pussy tonight as well. It's not our normal reminder day for it, but I haven't been exactly jumping at the chance to please him lately, so I feel like I'm due a punishment in that area. There are times when I think to myself, "I should definitely be spanked for that." Of course I never say that out loud!

J made a comment last night about me needing some training. I sometimes makes things hard on him and I really don't mean to. I know there are days when I could easily take his mind off of work and stress and calm him down, but I don't. It's due to pure laziness. As much as training sounds scary, J might have a point.

He also brought up the fact that we don't play with our toys enough. We have a whole box full of them. I don't know exactly what he has in mind, but I'm sure I'll find out soon enough!

Also last night, we found a skirt for me to wear on car rides (or wherever else J wants me to wear it). It's a wrap around skirt, so it'll allow for easy access. J tells me the skirt is to remain open anytime I am wearing it in the car, and of course I won't be wearing anything underneath. We are going to try to take a short road trip this weekend to try it out. He mentioned getting on the highway so that "truckers will be able to look down and see you." [gulp].

Many implements

I came into the bedroom and saw all of these implements laying out on the bed.



I knew tonight I was going to be spanked on my ass and also on my pussy. For various reasons that seemed to happen one right after the other, it has been a long time since I've had my pussy spanked.

I was first told to lay on my stomach. J sat next to me on the bed and began to spank me with his hand. He switched on and off with the strap, ruler, and other implements pictured above. At one point he spanked each cheek hard, very quickly, one right after the other. It seemed to go on forever. My ass was on fire.

We discussed the usual topics during the spanking. The reasons for the spanking, understanding the rules and consequences, if these reminder spankings help me get things done, and what I need to do to avoid punishment.

Once that was over he had me flip onto my back. He started right in, using his hand at first. He also used one of the small leather slappers. J lectured me more than usual tonight during my pussy spanking. He was very stern. I felt like he was in a very strict mode and I also felt like he would not abuse that role and he would take care of me. He thoroughly spanked my pussy and lips. He even spanked inside my lips, on the very sensitive part. He used the ruler on my pussy and also on my nipples. It stung and I know I squirmed a lot.

I feel very submissive immediately after a pussy spanking. I guess that's the idea. Thing is, it wears off pretty quickly. The submissive feeling. Not totally, but mostly.

Tonight, right after my spanking, J did an inspection of my pussy. He checked to make sure there were no marks or bruising. I feel so exposed when he does his examinations.

He then started playing with my clit. At one point I asked him to move his thumb to a different position. He asked me if I was trying to tell him how to play with his toy. And he said, "Didn't we just talk about whose toy this is?" Yes, yes, we did.

I was close to cuming, but he stopped and said that wasn't the time for that. I hopped in the shower and thought about finishing myself off, but I wasn't sure if I should. We have no set rule about me cuming. Generally I just cum whenever I want. So I thought I would wait and mention it later. When I did J said I could use my favorite toy tonight to come before I go to bed. I am looking forward to that. I couldn't wait though. Just a little while ago I used my hand while still in the office. I just couldn't wait for the release.

Sorry to have been away so long...

Last week was crazy for J and I. Both with work and with family. We had no time for anything else.

I stayed relatively motived. Well, I at least got my chores and errands finished each day.

I had no discipline all week. I know J felt bad about it, but I really think it's ok. He did notice I was a bit grumpier than normal, but that was partially due to being so busy, not getting to spend really any time together for multiple days in a row, and having a sinus headache all week.

We started back up yesterday and I think we're on our way to being back on track with discipline. Oh, and J found us a new position for my 3 times weekly spankings. (New to us, not new to the "spanking world"). He laid out a couple of pillows on the bed, and had me lay over them. J sat next to me and was able to wrap his arm around my waist, which gave him better control. It was also a little more restricting for me.

Other times when we've tried to live our lives this way, if we missed a week of discipline, it would be a struggle to start back up. We would normally fall right back into bad habits. But this time it was so easy to just start back up. Which is why I'm not worried about the week we skipped. I don't think J is either. He reads this blog regularly now, so I'm sure we'll talk about it after he sees the blog, if not before.

J seems to have really gotten the hang of being strict when he needs to be without overdoing it, which I think might have been a problem for us before. On the one hand, he doesn't usually let me slide, but at the same time I don't feel he is unreasonable. And he's very in tune to me, so he knows when not to push and when to be very stern.

That's something

I totally forgot about Monday's spanking. I was involved in 2 projects that consumed all of my thoughts and I just wasn't even thinking about spankings. So when J said, "Hey Cass, go into the bedroom, take off your clothes and wait for me," it came as a complete surprise. But only for a second.

J has a totally different voice he uses when he's about to discipline me. It's very authoritative and I know he means it. He is otherwise very softspoken and gentle. It's only when he's in punishment/discipline/etc. mode that he sounds so stern.

I was spanked a lot harder tonight. I was squirming all over the place, I could barely take it. J says my butt is getting more used to being spanked often and he doesn't want me to build up a tolerance. Also, he wants to make sure I change modes from relaxing weekend to back to the grind work-week. I think it worked. Ouch!

I think J has found a good balance between knowing when to be really strict and when to not push things. The pace we are going has really been working well for both of us.

I'm not 100% motivated all the time, but I do get all of my daily chores and errands completed every day, so that's something.