Playful

The nice weather has J and I feeling frisky.  I've been playfully spanked in an erotic sort of way a few times recently, but have had no maintenence or punishment spankings.  

I've been pretty good about finishing my lists every day, but J and I haven't been reviewing them at night.  I'm ok with it for now.  I imagine at some point I'll be asking to be spanked again.

That's all for now. 

Thanks for reading.

Been a long time

J and I have had a lot of recent issues that have kept us from our maintenence schedule.  Some have been health related, some family related, and some laziness related

Things have settled down, but J and I are having some trouble getting back into a regular schedule.

I'm still completing my to do lists everyday, and coming to bed on time.  But there have been no spakings for several weeks.  I have been resistent to starting again, which has happened in the past.

I'm not really sure what to do, and neither is J.  He doesn't want to push.  And I don't want to resent the lifestyle.

So for now we're just not doing anything.

I'll keep you posted.

Back on track?

J and I didn't have much trouble getting back into the swing of things on Monday. Or I should say J didn't have much trouble. I haven't been overly resistant or anything, but I'm just not feelin it this week. I haven't really been thinking about the spankings and when J tells me it's time, I just don't feel like doing it.

Monday's spanking was not so bad; J wanted to ease back into things. But it still hurt a lot. My butt hadn't been spanked in something like 2 weeks. Wednesday's spanking was a lot harder and I was still sore on Thursday. I was also sent to the corner before the spanking, which J hadn't done for awhile. I hate standing there. I feel so restless.

Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to have a substitute spanker for when J can't do it. I wonder if it would help keep me from falling back into pure laziness when J is not around. But unfortunately none of our friends or family would be able to fill that role.

We're alive!

We're both feeling better. Thanks for all the comments and emails.

After we were sick for a week, J went on a business trip and was gone for another week. It's been really hard to get back into the swing of things. There has been no spanking and the rules have been lax since J's been home. I've even been staying up WAY past my bedtime!

He told me tonight that next week we will be starting back up with spankings 3 times a week, and bedtime and other rules will be back in effect. Yikes!

One good thing is that I've been keeping up with my chores, even without the spankings. Yay me!

Update

J and I have been sick for the past week, so all activities have been put on hold.  We are just starting to feel better, but J is about to leave on a business trip.  I'm hoping when all is back to "normal" we can get back to the regular spankings.

In the meantime, I'll work on getting healthy again.

Anticipation

Sometimes, when I'm sitting here, waiting for a spanking, I can feel the anticipation building. I know that I am going to be spanked when J gets home from work. He will be home in less than an hour. I know I won't be able to talk my way out of it or somehow otherwise distract J from his task.

Depending on my mood, I sometimes feel turned on by the anticipation. Other times I feel irritated and grumpy. And other times I feel thankful and well taken care of. Overall, this spanking schedule we've been keeping has had a positive affect on us. So no matter what kind of mood I'm in, I submit to the spanking.

...LATER...

So I'm writing this part after having just been spanked. J tells me I'm doing great with my errands/chores. I've been making a daily to do list and have completed it every day. I'm also doing well with not using that tone that J hates. I've been coming to bed on time each night, too. But the one thing I haven't been so great with is being submissive (both sexually and not). J really wants to work on that this week.

It's not that I'm completely unsubmissive, I just have had a low sex drive and have been a bit on the grumpy side lately. Part of it is laziness and part of it is letting myself get back out of shape again. I always feel crappy when I don't exercise regularly. So that's the other thing J brought up tonight. He wants me to start going back to the gym. And he decided that he'll go with me to get himself in better shape, too. He says if I don't go, he won't go either, (although if I don't go, I'll get spanked!).

J is in the garage right now putting a final stain on the ruler. My punishment for not being submissive is a spanking on my pussy with the ruler. It's a heavy wooden ruler that J sanded and stained, so it will look nice and not leave any splinters or anything. We haven't actually used it yet, though it's come up in conversation a bunch of times over the past couple of weeks.

I'm a little nervous about the ruler. I've never been spanked on my pussy other than for play. I've never had an actual frontal punishment. I know it is supposed to hurt, and that's what makes me nervous. I think I'm going to be seeing a lot of this ruler in the near future.

If this posting (and my other postings) seems choppy, it's because sometimes I write things throughout the day, as I think of them. I wait to post them until I have some time to type them all out into the blog.

Thanks for reading!

Starting a new week (and a new year!)

Friday's spanking was pretty intense. I guess I've been a bit grumpy lately and J hates that. He used the middle sized round paddle and he spanked me hard. Friday spankings are usually a bit more intense because I usually go the whole weekend without any scheduled spankings and J wants to make sure I don't forget it by the end of the weekend.

On Saturday we met some friends for brunch. These are some of J's friends that I don't really like to be around. Last time we got together with them, J spanked me before we left, just as a reminder to behave. I half expected him to do the same this time, but he didn't. I managed to behave myself anyway. It wasn't so bad, because it was only brunch, which was pretty quick. It wasn't like when we get together for dinner and it lasts hours and hours.

Well, we're just about ready to start a new week. I'm going to try to get myself in a better mood so I don't get into trouble! I need to find some motivation, too, so I can make sure to get all of my tasks/chores/errands completed on time.

Last day of 2008

We missed nearly a whole week of discipline during Christmas. We had family in town, staying with us, for a few days during the week. Then we were out of town, staying with friends for the weekend.

This week we started back up with a spanking on Monday, and again on Wednesday. J tells me that we will keep with the 3 days a week, indefinitely.

He also said that next time we miss a week, I will get spanked every day for the following week. He tells me my attitude greatly suffers when we miss a full week of spanking.

Wednesday's spanking was really bad for me. I felt defiant the whole time and I just wanted it to be over. To make things worse, I forgot (as usual) to Thank J for spanking me. I'm sure I have further punishment for that. We can talk about it tomorrow, though. Tonight we are going to party!

Happy New Year!

Happy Holidays!

Merry Christmas!  Happy Holidays!  

Hope you all enjoy your holiday season.

Cassady & Jack

Masturbating

Tonight's spanking hurt more than usual. I don't know why. Some days I feel like I could take a lot more than I get, and other days (like tonight) it feels like I've never been spanked before. I couldn't stop squirming, and I could not wait for it to be over. Maybe it has something to do with hormones.

J wants me to masturbate tomorrow before I do my chores, before I turn on the computer, basically before I do anything else. He thinks it will be a good stress reliever for me.

I would not normally complain about masturbating, but my hand is hurting me tonight. I spent hours and hours writing out our Christmas cards. We send hundreds out to our business clients, in addition to our friends & family. But I'm sure I can find a toy to help me out.

Speaking of stress relief, J has a lot of busy, stressful conferences and work related stuff coming up in the next month or two. He mentioned that I will be relieving him of some of his stress. Orally. So I imagine I'm going to find myself on my knees a lot in Jan/Feb.

Quickie

Just wanted to check in really quickly and let you all know things are still going well.

J and I have both been busy with work and with getting ready for the upcoming holidays. We've been fitting our spankings in, but they've been pretty standard.

After the holidays we will have more time for fun. I'll be posting more often, too.

Quick update

Things are back to normal, if you want to call it that, with our discipline schedule. I got my Wednesday spanking and it was pretty standard. J is really liking me over the pillows on the bed. It's a bit more comfortable for me, but I wouldn't say I like it any better. I think J gets better leverage. He can definitely restrain me more in that position.

J wants to stay with the 3 times a week schedule, as much as we can. We will have to do some adjusting in the next several weeks. We have friends & family visiting at different times between now and the end of Dec.

We are probably going to stay pretty busy through the holidays and a bit after, so my blog posting may be sporadic. I will post new things when I can.

Thank you everyone who has been reading and sending me comments. I'm glad you are having fun reading about our adventures. It's been fun living our adventures, and writing about them, too.

Sorry to have been away so long...

Last week was crazy for J and I. Both with work and with family. We had no time for anything else.

I stayed relatively motived. Well, I at least got my chores and errands finished each day.

I had no discipline all week. I know J felt bad about it, but I really think it's ok. He did notice I was a bit grumpier than normal, but that was partially due to being so busy, not getting to spend really any time together for multiple days in a row, and having a sinus headache all week.

We started back up yesterday and I think we're on our way to being back on track with discipline. Oh, and J found us a new position for my 3 times weekly spankings. (New to us, not new to the "spanking world"). He laid out a couple of pillows on the bed, and had me lay over them. J sat next to me and was able to wrap his arm around my waist, which gave him better control. It was also a little more restricting for me.

Other times when we've tried to live our lives this way, if we missed a week of discipline, it would be a struggle to start back up. We would normally fall right back into bad habits. But this time it was so easy to just start back up. Which is why I'm not worried about the week we skipped. I don't think J is either. He reads this blog regularly now, so I'm sure we'll talk about it after he sees the blog, if not before.

J seems to have really gotten the hang of being strict when he needs to be without overdoing it, which I think might have been a problem for us before. On the one hand, he doesn't usually let me slide, but at the same time I don't feel he is unreasonable. And he's very in tune to me, so he knows when not to push and when to be very stern.

Permission

Sunday J decided I would have to ask him permission to do anything all day. I kept forgetting and would get up to do something and then have to come all the way back into the room, sit back down, and ask J. He always said yes to whatever I asked, it was just about having to ask - even to go to the bathroom!

Later in the evening he pulled me into the bedroom and took me "against my will". Now before anyone worries, it's not really against my will, it's only against my will symbolically. J knows my limits and if I really felt strongly about it, he would have respected my wishes. But overall, I've given him blanket "permission" to do whatever he wants. J can read me very well and I trust him to know if something is truly wrong and act accordingly. So far, he absolutely has.

So, as I was saying, he pulled me into the bedroom and yanked my pants & underwear down, he stuffed my underwear in my mouth, spread my legs and thrust into me. We were both half dressed and half undressed. J was half on the bed and half standing over me, holding my wrists above my head. It was hot!

Right before bed he was asking for a blow job. I didn't feel like it. There was no specific reason, I just felt a little bit grumpy about it, so I protested. He threatened me with a spanking several times before I finally did it. I don't know if I have earned a pussy spanking tomorrow or not. The rule is if I refuse or am grumpy about anything sexual I will get my pussy spanked, but J didn't say anything about it. I guess I will find out on Monday after he gets home from work.

Weekend

Friday:
Friday night I got an extra long, extra hard spanking with the big rectangular wooden paddle. We have dinner plans with some of J's friends on Saturday night. His friends are ok, but their wives are idiots. I have been known to sometimes take a certain tone when I am talking to them. It's the tone that J hates. So he wanted to make sure that this spanking is fresh in my mind tomorrow night.

I was in my usual, over his knee position, on the bed. I had a big blanket wrapped around me so I would't get cold. He usually spanks me for awhile, then has me kneel up and he lectures me, then spanks some more. Tonight he still did that but he added some lecturing while he was spanking me. I think it was effective in that it forced me to focus on what was happening and not let my mind wander.

At every spanking session, J checks in with me to make sure I am still wanting this and that I feel things are working (yes and yes), and I always ask him the same things (yes and yes).

Saturday:
On Saturday we were dressed and ready to meet J's friends. Right before leaving, J told me to bend over the bed. Our bed just happens to be waist level for me, so it's very easy for me to be in this position. J sits next to me and puts one arm around my waist to hold me in position. He took my pants down and spanked me really hard with the leather slappy paddle - once on each cheek. He said that was to remind me not to use my bitchy tone with the wives tonight. I think I will remember. That paddle stings!

Update: J told me on Saturday night, after we got home, that since I was so well behaved at dinner, he would cancel my Monday night spanking, so I'm pretty glad about that. He also told me that I absolutely have to go back to the gym on Monday. If not, there is a severe punishment waiting for me.

Strap

We were once again limited on time tonight (Wednesday), but J definitely did not want to skip a spanking. So while we were getting dressed to go out, J said, "Bend over the bed, we're going to take care of this now."

He used an implement that is referred to as the "punishment" strap. It is a leather strap with a wooden handle. It's very heavy and it hurts! He spanked me with that for just a few minutes and reminded me of the reasons we are doing this. I'm glad it didn't last long, I can't take much with that strap.

When we were finished, J said I should think about what that strap feels like, because if he needs to punish me, he'll most likely be using that strap. Yikes!

That's something

I totally forgot about Monday's spanking. I was involved in 2 projects that consumed all of my thoughts and I just wasn't even thinking about spankings. So when J said, "Hey Cass, go into the bedroom, take off your clothes and wait for me," it came as a complete surprise. But only for a second.

J has a totally different voice he uses when he's about to discipline me. It's very authoritative and I know he means it. He is otherwise very softspoken and gentle. It's only when he's in punishment/discipline/etc. mode that he sounds so stern.

I was spanked a lot harder tonight. I was squirming all over the place, I could barely take it. J says my butt is getting more used to being spanked often and he doesn't want me to build up a tolerance. Also, he wants to make sure I change modes from relaxing weekend to back to the grind work-week. I think it worked. Ouch!

I think J has found a good balance between knowing when to be really strict and when to not push things. The pace we are going has really been working well for both of us.

I'm not 100% motivated all the time, but I do get all of my daily chores and errands completed every day, so that's something.

Something's working

So last week we missed one of my spanking days. J made sure to spank me a little bit harder and a little bit longer on Friday to make up for it. He used that long rectangular wooden paddle. Right at the end he made me count the last 10 outloud. They hurt the most. He also wanted to make sure I remember the spanking all weekend.

J said he can definitely tell a difference in my motivation from just skipping one spanking day. He told me on Friday that we will continue with the 3 days a week spankings through at least next week.

Something funny happened this weekend. I was having lunch with a friend and she made a comment that she noticed lately I had less of a bitchy tone in my voice. Not that it's something I have all the time, but if you are around me enough, you'll eventually hear it. She said she noticed it less in recent weeks. I chuckled to myself and just told her I had been working on that.

J was pleased when I told him what my friend said. I feel good about it too.

Brrrr.

Monday was really cold, so when I was getting my spanking, J used a blanket to cover me up so I wouldn't be too cold. The only thing uncovered was my butt! The blanket was huge and fell all around my head, I sort of felt like I was in a little tent. I could see out straight ahead, but not to either side.

J used the big wooden rectangular paddle for the spanking. It is one of the worst paddles we have. He explained that he was using it so that I would be aware of what a punishment spanking would be like. He didn't spank me as hard or as long as he would if it was a punishment spanking, but he wanted me to feel that paddle. Just as a reinforcement/reminder.

Later in the evening we had some fun. J had me lay on the edge of our bed, on my side, and he stood in front of me. I was able to finish what we had started earlier in the day. We also discovered, in this position, that he could use the tawse and gently whip me while I was sucking him.

I should have had a spanking tonight (Wednesday), but J had a work related emergency and though he was able to work from home, he was working well past 10pm. I'm sure we will make up for it soon.

Collar

J wanted me to wear my collar while I was doing my chores today. I don't usually have problems with the collar, but for some reason today, it rubbed a raw spot on my neck. I didn't have it on for very long either. I did the dishes, cleaned up the kitchen, dusted, and made a few phone calls. That was less than 2 hours.

J stopped home on his lunch break today to pick something up. While he was here, he commanded me to kneel in front of him, unzip his pants, and take him into my mouth. He didn't have time to finish, though, so we'll probably get to that later tonight.

I still haven't gotten back to the gym. It's been ages since I've been there. I've been feeling so lazy and blubbery lately, I must get back into the gym routine. Oh why can't I just sit around eating cupcakes all day?

I have my Monday spanking to "look forward to" tonight. Otherwise I think J and I are going to curl up on the couch and watch a movie.