A day between house guests

My brother left tonight. He and some of his friends are going to live in some little college town for awhile. We have one day to ourselves before our friends arrive on Friday.

Since I don't have much to update I thought I would do a book review of sorts of a book I just finished.

The Compleat Spanker by Lady Green

The Compleat Spanker is a very thin book, and a quick read that might be useful to a true beginner to spanking. The focus is mainly on erotic spankings. Lady Green discusses various common spanking implements, talks about why people spank, safety issues, and gives etiquette advice for spanking parties. I read the first couple chapters and then skimmed through the rest. I was hoping for something more in depth than a basic intro to spanking.

Quick Discipline

My brother went out tonight for several hours, which gave J and I some alone time. We were laying on the bed, catching up from our day. J mentioned my list and that he hadn't checked it because my brother was here, but that this break in our version of DD would end as soon as we did not have house guests.

Without another word, J reached over and slapped my left boob. Then my right. Back and forth a few times.

He spread my legs with his hands and started spanking my pussy. I kept closing my legs, so he took that trade show ruler and put it between my legs, sideways, so that I could not close my legs. He stung my pussy with his slaps, then told me to roll over on my stomach. I got a hand and ruler spanking.

When it was over J made me stay in the bedroom for a few more minutes. He was not comfortable with me in the corner, because it's in the hallway, and Brother could be home at any minute.

He usually only spanks my pussy when i deny his sexual advances, which wasn't the case tonight. I think he was just showing a bit of his domination over me. And I liked it.

J said it was important I got some discipline, even if it was abbreviated. He does not want me to forget what we are doing.

I don't know how people practice any sort of DD with kids around. Having my adult brother interfered with our privacy enough. I can't imagine someone being completely dependent on me being in the house.

Visitors

I finally have a chance to update. Our house guest is out with some friends, so I figured I'd get some blogging in while I have the chance. I do love my brother, but he sometimes acts like he's still in college (he's in his late 30's), and it seems like it falls on me to take care of him.

So last week I was wondering if J read the blog. Well it turns out he hadn't.

On Friday he came into the kitchen when I was making dinner and said, "I just read your blog." He also said, "I didn't know you updated it recently." He told me he checks every once in awhile, but hadn't looked in about 2 weeks, until that night. So I guess we were just feeling the same urges.

He's on board with trying our version of DD again.

J told me I am going to have maintanence spankings 3 times a week at least for a couple of weeks. He agrees that I need some training.

However, right away we hit a road block, because my brother is staying here. We don't have any real privacy with him here. He is supposed to be gone by this weekend, but we have friends who are coming to stay with us for a long weekend. This was planned long before I knew my brother was coming. And it's friends we don't get to see often, so I don't want to cancel.

So we can't really do anything until after Halloween. I'm hoping we can get started again and don't stall out like we have often done.

Brother is still here...

...and everytime I come into the office to check my email (or blog), he says, "Oh yeah, good idea, " and follows me with his laptop. So he's always over my shoulder.

I will update more when I can.

Spanked again??

Tonight around 4:45 I got a text from J asking me if I had finished my list from yesterday. There were a few things I didn't get to, so I replied and told him "not all of it". His text back to me had the following words "Be in the bedroom with your pants off when I get home." Yikes.

I just got spanked yesterday and J has scheduled another maintenance for tomorrow. I wasn't really planning on being spanked today, too!

When he got home I was waiting in the bedroom. I usually greet him at the door, so I felt awkward waiting for him alone in another room. He came into the bedroom, kissed me, and then guided me onto the bed, face down.

He said everyday after work he wants to see my list, and if anything is not completed, we will deal with it immediately. He also mentioned that if it's a maintenance day, I will be spanked twice.

After my lecture, he used his hand and that stupid ruler thing from the trade show to spank me. I thought the spanking was hard and thorough, but J later said it was neither.

After I was spanked, J told me to stand in the corner. That is probably my least favorite thing. I get bored just standing there. Today he put my list in front of my face and had me hold it there while I was in the corner. My mind still drifted.

J seems to be stepping back into his role, and I am trying to step back into mine. I am back and forth with wanting to be spanked and not. Is that common with any of you?

I really like being held accountable. I am sometimes worried that it puts too much pressure on J, though.

We had some fantastic sex tonight, which is always a nice side effect of our version of DD.

Tomorrow is another maintenance day. But the good news is, my to do list is finished for today!

Maybe he is reading the blog...

I'm thinking maybe J is reading the blog and just not mentioning it. Either that or we are just feeling the same way right now.

We had our 6pm appointment, which, as I suspected included me getting spanked. Right at 6, he told me to go into our bedroom. He came in a few seconds later and told me to strip from the waist down.

Once he had me face down on the bed, he alternated spanking me with his hand and with this ruler thing we got for free at a recent Trade show. It's made of thin wood and it's very light, which makes it sting-y.

I wasn't spanked for very long, J noticed outloud that my butt was "out of practice". During the spanking J said he thinks things are better around our house when I have regular maintenance. So we are going back to that. I don't know what our regular schedule will be, but this week we're doing it on Thursday.

J said he hopes one of these times we start our version of DD it will stick. It's much better when I'm motivated.

I didn't say this to him, because I sometimes feel like I'm trying to control things from the "bottom" and I don't want to do that, but I feel like I need some training. I am out of practice and half of me wants to fight this. But the other half of me likes things better when I am not so lazy. I love having my To Do list done every day with time to spare for fun. I just can't seem to accomplish that on my own, with no real consequences if I don't get things done.

I think after awhile J will be able to be lenient again because I will be more interested in getting things done, I'll be "better trained". I am afraid that I need J to be strict beyond his comfort level. I'm also afraid that he will focus too much on the submission part (especially sexually) because that's the part he likes best. But I really need the discipline, too. I think.

The thing I think I need is also the thing that makes me the most nervous. Are you other spankos that way too?

After my spanking and lecture, J had me stand in the corner. I had my shirt on the whole time, with only my jeans and underwear off, and he had me remain that way. I was supposed to think about everything J said about starting back up with maintenance, receiving discipline, and resuming my submissive role once again.

I was only in the corner for about 5 minutes, and my mind kept drifting most of that time. So I didn't really get to focus on what J wanted me to. I guess that's sort of what I'm doing now.

After the corner, I was sitting in a chair, across from J, still naked from the waist down. He spread my legs open with his legs and held them open. I felt so completely exposed. He didn't do anything, just looked at me.

He eventually let me put my underwear back on, but I am still pantsless.

My brother is coming to stay with us, for I don't know how long. He says 1 night, but that could mean 2 weeks. So I don't know if that's going to kill this attempt at our version of DD before it even starts. We will see.

Hints

I've been hinting around to J that I need to be spanked. I think he must have gotten it because he gave me a few swats last night before he went to bed, due to my whining & scowling. He also told me that we will have an "appointment" tonight at 6. That usually means I am going to get a spanking. He mentioned that my attitude hasn't been great lately.

I showed J my to do list last night, which is something I haven't done in awhile. He didn't request it, I just asked him if he wanted to see it. He did and he told me to make sure everything on it is done before I come to bed. There was one item on there that he mentioned should have been completed before he got home from work. But then he added that since I had a busy day, he would let that one slide.

I sometimes wish he wouldn't do that. On the one hand I like that he's lenient, because then when I really don't feel like doing something I can pretty much get out of it. But on the other hand I feel like it's not really effective that way. I sometimes think I need J to be strict and not let me get away with anything. But he's so busy with work, that might put too much pressure on him. I'm just going to wait and see how it plays out.

I found a file I had saved on my computer that reflects how I feel things should be, most of the time (I waver back and forth). I don't want to post it because I don't know the source and I don't want to violate anyone's copyright. If I can't find the source in the next few days, I will try to summarize it in my own words.

We're still here!

Hello friends.

We are still alive! J and I spent the summer traveling, and spanking & discipline have been on the back burner. I haven't really missed it, mostly because we've been so busy spending time with friends. I haven't had much real responsibility, so there were rare times where a spanking would have even been necessary.

We've been home for a few weeks now and the past couple of days I have been starting to feel like I need to be spanked. I have gotten very lax in my day to day chores. It's like I am still on vacation. We have been ordering out a lot, because I can't even get motivated enough to make dinner some days. I feel like these are things I should be spanked for, even though I dread the thought of how it would feel.

I keep thinking about it and in some ways I am craving J to start up my spankings again. But I start to feel like it will only work if he is super strict to start out and not let me get away with anything. But then I think about it more and I feel like I would get angry by J being that strict with me. I think I lose some of the benefit when he's lenient, but it's much less scary for me.

He did spank me today with a very light ruler. It was just a few swats and was more playful than serious. Because my ass is like virgin again, it really hurt and I immediately felt like I didn't want any spankings at all. So it's a toss up.

I'm sort of hoping J will just make the decision and do whatever he thinks needs to be done.