Did you think I fell off the face of the earth?

Nope! I'm still here.

My injuries (foot/knee) are all healed! They have been for awhile, but then things got hectic with J's business, and then we were traveling over the holidays, then we had house guests....

We haven't been on our spanking schedule in months. Mostly due to our busy schedule, guests, etc. But also I just haven't been in the right mindset for it. I can tell J is anxious to get back into things, but I think I take longer to decompress and ease our way back into it.

A few times over the past weeks and months, J did spank me, but only for a few minutes at a time and never for any serious infraction. Mostly just play.

He has given me a bedtime again. I had been staying up way too late and then sleeping late and not getting enough done during the day. So I once again have a set time to be in bed. That just started again last week. I hate having to watch the clock, though.

I will try to blog more often, but for now I'll leave you with this picture...

Where has the time gone?

Hello everyone!

I'm still here! I haven't dropped off the face of the earth!

It's been a long past couple of months. As many of you know I broke my foot. It made everything very difficult, including all spanking activities. We tried a few times, but it never really worked. Then, the last time, I twisted my knee! That took a few weeks to heal and made things just that much harder.

I'm all healed now, but I find myself still moving very cautiously. J and I are both nervous about resuming my spanking schedule. Mostly the problem arrises in my inability to not squirm. If I jolt my knee or foot I'm afraid it will hurt!

I don't have much else to report. We had a great summer, even with my injury. I hope you all did, too.

*cassady

Foot Update and a Spanking

My foot is mostly better, I've had lots of physical therapy and I can walk around a bit more now. J and I still haven't really been able to get back into things; it's surprising how hard it is to get into certain positions with an injured foot. It's like I'm missing a whole leg. Not only can my foot not bear a lot of weight/pressure, but my whole leg is weaker from lack of use, so it's harder to support myself in different positions that I'm used to.

J did, however, find a way to spank me today. He said he thought I really needed it (which I did). We were laying on our bed and my legs were dangling over the edge, so there was no pressure on my foot or leg. He spread open my legs and spanked my pussy. It wasn't hard, but it stung. I could not stay still either. J said I was squirming much more than usual, which tells him I am too much out of practice. He said he will need to remedy that.

I then stood in front of J and he bent me over slightly, so that I was pretty much standing, but putting most of my weight on my hands, leaning on the bed. He grabbed a nearby wooden brush and paddled me with the flat side of it.

It wasn't very long, but it was a definite reminder that I shouldn't let myself become lazy or neglect my chores (at least the ones I'm able to do with a broken foot!)

Broke my Foot!

Just a quick update to let everyone know what has been going on here. I apologize for not updating sooner.

Last month I broke my foot. ACK!

It's healing nicely, but J and I haven't been able to do much playing or spanking or anything.

I have a removable cast and crutches, so I've been able to get around a little, but mostly I have to keep it elevated and iced.

I was depressed when it first happened. The loss of mobility was terrible. And I haven't been spanked in nearly a month!

Hopefully I'll be healed soon (they say 6-8 weeks) and we can get back to business! lol

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Chore Charts & Cleaning Lists

I found this site that has Chore Charts, Cleaning Lists, and other household management tools that you can print for free.

http://moneysavingmom.com/downloads/household-management-forms

I generally just make a to do list on a piece of scrap paper, but I like the organization of the forms on that site. And it lets you easily customize them to your own needs.

I showed them to J and he said they would be much easier to read than my "scribbles" that I write down on the scrap paper. I'm going to print a few tonight and see if it helps make me more organized.

I've had an easy week so far. J gives me a lot of slack when it's that time of the month. I've been keeping up with my chores, but J has crossed a few things off of my list when I haven't been feeling well, and I haven't been spanked at all.

Next week will be a different story...

Reminder Spankings

After getting reminder spankings every weekday for 2 weeks, J told me he thinks I am ready to go back to our old schedule of 3x a week.

My first reaction was relief to not be getting spanked every day. But then I started to wonder if I might actually need daily spankings to keep on the path I'm on. The past 2 weeks I feel like I've been mostly on top of things and am getting better at being submissive to J.

Maybe I need daily reminders . It puts me in a certain headspace where I feel like I'm confident in my place and what I have to do.

I'm beginning to realize I like the routine and accountability involved in our version of DD. It makes me feel safe and secure to know that someone cares about what I do and will help me be a better person, even if those ways might be unconventional.

I like to know that I am going to get spanked on certain days and at certain times, even if I haven't done anything wrong. I know some people think that it's unfair to be spanked for "no reason", but I don't see it that way at all. I see it as J knowing enough about me to know what I need, and he follows through. And I definitely need to be spanked regularly. Otherwise I just fall to pieces. Not emotionally - I'm always very happy with my life, but as far as getting things done - errands, chores, etc... I just get so lazy, I just don't do anything. The reminder spankings really help keep me on track.

I'm hoping 3 spankings a week will be enough for me to happily get my to-do lists done, and not struggle with finishing it each night. And I hope the weekly pussy spanking is enough to help me be submissive to J without any complaints or hesitation.

If anyone wants to post in the comments, or email me privately, I'd love to know what spanking schedule you have and if it's working.

I am a submissive woman

I just read this poem at the CornerTime blog. It really says a lot of how I feel about being submissive to J.

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I am a submissive woman

I find pleasure, joy, and fulfillment from being submissive

to my Husband in a loving relationship.

I am not weak or stupid. I am a strong woman,

with firm views and a clear concept of what I want out of my life.

I do not serve out of shame or weakness, but out of pride and strength.

I will look to my loving Husband for guidance and protection, for never

will I be more complete than when He is with me.

I know that He will protect my body, my mind, and my soul

with His strength and wisdom.

He is everything to me, as I am everything to Him.

His touch awakens me and His thoughts free me.

Only in serving Him do I find complete freedom and joy…

His punishments may be harsh, but I accept them thankfully,

knowing that He has my best interests always foremost in His mind.

If He desires my body for pleasure, I shall joyfully give it to Him

and take pleasure myself from knowing that I have brought Him happiness.

However, the pleasure of the flesh is but one facet of our relationship.

The love, the trust and sharing, the words spoken and felt,

those are all parts of this relationship.

My body is His, and if He says I am beautiful, then I am.

No matter what I look like to others, I am beautiful in His eyes,

and because of that I hold my head high.

If He says I am His precious jewel,

then I am that…a beautiful, sparkling gem.

If He says that I am His pet, His slut, His whore, then I am that..

as wanton and dirty as He wants me to be.

My mind is His, to expand, to explore, to know only as He can.

I have no secrets from Him… for secrets are a thing that would

keep me from being more perfectly His.

Secrets would put a wall up between my Husband and myself…

and I do not want walls.

His lessons are not always ones I would seek on my own,

but they are lessons He has decided that I need, and so I learn from Him.

My soul is His, as bare to His touch as ever my skin could be

when I kneel naked at His feet.

Never a moment goes by when I do not feel His presence,

be He miles away or standing over me.

If I were to ever displease Him, His displeasure would be a blow to my soul,

worse punishment than any lashes could be.

The anguish of my soul that I feel when I disappoint Him

is harder to bear than any physical anguish I feel.

I am grateful that he cares enough about me to spend

His time and energy so freely on me.

I have the easier job, to feel, to experience,

to let myself go and abandon everything to Him.

I am His pleasure and His responsibility, and He takes both seriously .

I am a submissive woman.

I am proud to call myself that, my submission is a gift that I do not give lightly,

and can only be given to the One who can appreciate that gift and return it tenfold.

Only to my Husband who has that strength, will I give myself fully,

because I am strong and proud.

I am a submissive woman.

~Author Unknown

Back Home and Finally Alone!

Before we left for the beach, my brother told us he's moving in with his girlfriend! He doesn't have very many belongings, so his move was quick and easy.

We are finally alone again!

While we were away J told me that we were going back to regular, reminder spankings. I was under the impression that we were going to be returning to our former schedule of 3 reminder spankings a week plus one pussy spanking. But J informed me that I'd be getting spanked every day, until further notice!

The first week was mostly spent getting back into routine. I was spanked every day Monday through Friday. Wednesday I also got a pussy spanking. I struggled a little bit during the week. I did not want to be spanked every day. And by the end of the week I was so sore!

But on the other hand, my to do list was done, plus I even had time to do EXTRA! That part was fantastic.

This week started and J said we would again have daily reminder spankings. Monday wasn't too bad, but Tuesday hurt like crazy! I am very sore from all these spankings!

Mostly J has been reminding me of why we are doing this. As much as I don't like the spankings, something is definitely working, because I have been able to complete my chores and daily to do lists with tons of extra time to spare!

Last night, right before bed, J told me to take off my clothes and lay on the bed. He started playing with my clit the way I love him to. He was asking me whose pussy it was, and I replied "yours". It was so hot. Then, right before I was about to cum, he stopped and told me to take over. I did and he spanked my pussy very hard and said CUM! I had barely just gotten my fingers in place! He then proceeded to spank my pussy really fast and hard without stopping and kept telling me to cum. I didn't cum right away, but it was much quicker than normal, and it was intense! This is definitely J's new favorite game.

Ahhhh...it's good to be back home and back on track.

Birthday Spanking Week (Part 4)

(Read Part 1 Here)

(Read Part 2 Here)

(Read Part 3 Here)

Wednesday I was woken up with kisses and flowers. They smelled so sweet and filled the whole room. While I was still laying in bed, J gave me a nice, sensual full body massage, which turned into some fantastic sex. What a wonderful way to wake up on my birthday!

We had a small breakfast and took showers, and afterwards J reached over to me and started to put on my collar & leash. He hesitated and said, "We don't have to do this if you don't want to. If you want to spend your birthday some other way."

I gave him a quick kiss and told him I was all his.

He led me out to the deck and told me to kneel. I did and he fucked my face for just a few minutes. He then led me off the deck onto the grass and had me crawl around the yard on all fours, with him pulling on the leash. We don't often do things like that, but it was exciting being outside. It's very private and no one can see us, but it still feels exhibition-like. A few times he swatted my ass, as I was crawling and I was afraid the sound would carry. But it wasn't likely anyone would be able to tell where exactly it was coming from.

We spent a lot of time outside since the weather was perfectly warm and breezy. One thing J likes to do is open my pussy lips very wide and just hold them there. It makes me feel very exposed. Every time he did that, I could feel the breeze on my clit. It was just enough so I could feel it, but too light of a sensation to do any good. It was making me want to reach down and apply the right amount of pressure so that I could cum. But when I suggested this to J, he said no.

A few hours later, we went back in the house and J said I was going to finish what was started outside. He layed on the couch and I knelt next to him. He grabbed the leash and pulled me down to him. He reached around to the back of my head and guided me right to his cock. I hesitated and he said "Open."

I opened my mouth and he easily slid in. It didn't take very long for him to cum, since he'd been on the verge for hours.

He told me we had just enough time for one more spanking, before we had to leave. He arranged me over the ottoman and gave me a nice long warm up with his hand. He then alternated between a small wooden paddle and our leather strap. He spanked me for a very long time. It felt like an hour. Since my legs were spread wide, he also had access to my pussy, and he made sure to swat there a few times with his hand, in between swats to my ass with the paddle & strap. J said he wanted to ensure I would be ready to start back to our old schedule next week.

After my spanking, J said he would like to see me make myself cum. I flipped over on the ottoman, and started rubbing my clit. J watched me for a few minutes, and then gave me a quick swat with his hand. "Cum," he commanded. I can never cum on cue, but J likes to make me try. And once he thinks it's time, he spanks my pussy, without stopping, until I do cum. My pussy was getting sore like he spanked it for hours, but I think it only took about 4 minutes!

J let me lay on the ottoman for awhile to recover while he loaded the car. Before we left, I got dressed in regular clothes, which felt really strange. J took my collar and leash off, but he said I was going to be wearing the cock gag the whole way home. I gave him an alarmed look, but he assured me that it would be dark, and no one would be able to see me. He wasn't going to buckle the strap in the back, and if we came to any well lit areas, I could remove it. Same for toll booths or if we got pulled over.

I was sad about going back home, but at the same time glad to know that next week I would be back on track and getting things accomplished. And I had such a fun birthday week, both with our friends, and after they left!

Birthday Spanking Week (Part 3)

(Read Part 1 Here)

(Read Part 2 Here)

Part 3

Tuesday started out much like Monday with breakfast, then me on my knees in the shower, followed by air drying on the deck.

After being naked for a couple of days it starts to become less noticeable to me. I become a little more comfortable, though it makes going anywhere impossible. J came out to the deck with my collar and leash. Once they were on, he led me back into the house, and directly over his knee. He gave me a good warm up hand spanking. The whole time reminding me of what I agreed to, and what tasks I was supposed to be accomplishing every day. I felt him reach down next to him and the next thing I felt was one of his paddles on my ass. I haven't felt that in a long time and I had forgotten how much it hurts! J didn't spank hard, but he spanked long. I didn't think it was ever going to end.

Once J was done spanking my ass, he immediately led me into the guest bedroom, layed me over some pillows on the bed, face up and began spanking my pussy with his hand. "Who's pussy is this?" he asked me. "Yours," I responded meekly. J held my lips open with one hand and slapped my clit with his other. That really hurts! But at the same time I've been constantly just on the verge of cumming.

J told me to cross my legs at my ankles. I did and he grabbed them and lifted my legs up and started spanking me in the "diaper position". I think he's only ever done that once before, so it was unexpected. Each slap was just grazing the small part of my pussy that peeks through my closed legs. He then let go of my legs, but told me to hold them up. I heard the rattle of his belt. There is something about that sound that terrifies me and turns me on at the same time. J knows this so he makes sure to do it slowly and make sure I hear every bit of the sounds it makes. I could hear him undoing the buckle and pulling it through the loops. I was nervous. It's so rare that J uses the belt on me and I'm out of practice and I'm already sore. I wasn't sure if I could do this. J grabbed ahold of my legs again and I felt the first thwack of the belt. I yelped. One more thwack and J said that was enough of that for now.

Getting spanked is exhausting. I don't know why but so often I feel tired after getting a good spanking, and this was no exception. J told me to take a nap, which I happily did.

I was woken up an hour later by J licking my pussy. I was still laying on the edge of the bed, and I guess it was too much for him to resist. He fucked me with his tongue until I was fully satisfied. I almost felt like I needed another nap after that, but J had other plans. He told me he wanted to train my mouth to make sure my jaw would get used to being opened a lot, so I was always ready for him. As he was telling me this, he was inserting my cock gag and attaching the buckle behind my head. The cock gag isn't huge, but it does make my mouth feel like it's being stretched. He told me I'd be wearing that for most of the rest of the day.

We were both getting hungry, so J decided we'd have a quick bite on the deck. First we went into the kitchen and he had me bend over the table and spread my legs wide so he could see me while he was making the sandwiches. I was feeling vulnerable and sexy at the same time. He took the sandwiches and my leash and led me out onto the deck. I took the gag out only long enough to eat the sandwich and have a glass of water, then it was placed right back in my mouth.

We didn't do much of anything else for the rest of the afternoon, just watched TV and read some, though I did have the gag in the whole time.

We decided to have pizza for dinner, but we had to go pick it up. J had me put my wrap around skirt on as a dress, so I tied it under my arms and just let it hang. It barely covered my ass, but thankfully I didn't have to get out of the car. He also handed me my cock pacifier and told me he didn't want me to be without a cock in my mouth for that long. On the ride there, J pushed the skirt open at the slit so the whole front of me was exposed. He told me to spread my legs, and keep them spread. The pacifier just looks like a regular pacifier on the end that's not in my mouth, but still I am obviously a grown woman, so it still doesn't look normal! I tried to sink low in the seat and just hope no one noticed. I was allowed to cover myself up when we got to the parking lot, but I still had to keep the pacifier in. I know people saw.

After dinner J suggested we go to the beach. There's a private beach near the house that we can walk to. I like seeing the moon reflecting on the ocean at night, so of course I agreed. J again told me to wear my wrap around skirt as a dress, nothing underneath. And again he put the pacifier in my mouth. When we got to the beach we set our chairs near the water line. J arranged my skirt so that my whole front was exposed. The moon wasn't very bright so I don't think anyone would have been able to see me unless they got close, and by then we'd have seen them. We sat there for hours enjoying the night and each other.

(...to be continued)

I'll post Part 4 soon. It's the last day of our vacation and of my birthday spanking adventure. I can't wait to finish it, so I can tell you what's been happening THIS week.

Birthday Spanking Week (Part 2)

(Read Part 1 Here)

J said I was allowed to get dressed to go to dinner, but he was deciding what I would wear. He picked out a wrap around skirt and a tank top. Nothing underneath. Sandals on my feet. We walked to a small family owned Italian place just down the street.

While we were waiting for our food, J took my hand and simply said, "Next Monday."

"What's next Monday?"

"We start your reminder spankings again. You go back to being held accountable. We go back to our way."

"Oh," was all I could say.

J asked me if I did not want to (which is always an option I have).

"It's not that," I explained, "I'm just so out of practice, it makes me nervous."

J reassured me, as he always does, that he would never push me too hard, too fast. He knows my limits and he knows ME.

And then with a chuckle, he said, "Besides, after the next couple of days you won't be so out of practice."

Gulp!

I always wonder if anyone ever overhears us when we're discussing spankings in public. We are aware of who's around us and we speak in low voices, but you never know who is eavesdropping. I can only imagine what they would be thinking if the overheard the conversation we just had. Reminder spankings??? What??? lol.

On the way back to the house, J had me turn my skirt so that the slit was in front. You couldn't really see much, but if you were looking closely when I took a step, the slit opened just enough so that I was totally exposed for half a second. J kept walking backwards, in front of me, so that he could watch. It made my face turn red, but also made me giggle.

The second J opened the door, he said "Clothes." And I stripped once again.

I watched as J retrieved the bag from the living room. He pulled out my collar and fastened it around my neck. He then attached the leash. He started reminding me of many of the things we used to do, games we played, S/M stuff, D/s stuff, DD stuff. As he was telling me, he was leading me around the house. I was dripping wet.

When we got to the end of the hall, he led me into the master bedroom with the big 4 poster bed. I saw the straps attached to each post. J laid me spread eagle on the bed and put my wrists and ankles in the straps. He grabbed a leather slapper that I hadn't noticed, from the dresser, and started gently slapping my pussy. He gradually increased the speed and intensity until I was squirming against the restraints. Then he abruptly stopped. I asked him if I could please cum. He said no.

He uncuffed me and led me back to the living room, straight into a corner. He told me I needed to think about the events of the past day and the things we discussed. He wanted to make sure I was ready to start again, since we've only been half-assing it for the past several months. My mind always wanders when I'm standing in the corner. I have a hard time focusing when I'm just standing there doing nothing. But this time I was able to concentrate and I did think about everything we talked about and did. It's nothing new, we were just out of practice. We both already know we like it that way, so what was there to think about?

After 15 minutes in the corner, J called me to him. We talked for hours for the rest of the evening about everything and as usual we're on the same page.

(to be continued...)

Birthday Spanking Week (Part 1)

Last week some friends of ours invited us to their beach house. We planned on meeting them there Thursday and staying until Sunday. But since my birthday was yesterday, they offered to let us stay a few extra days to celebrate by ourselves. We didn't come back home until today.

While staying with our friends we mostly relaxed at the beach during the day and sat out on their porch at night. We drank a lot of wine and had a lot of laughs.

Our friends left Sunday evening, and J didn't waste any time.

"Take your clothes off," he told me, "I want you naked until we leave to go home."

"That's 4 days from now!" I knew my protest would be unheard.

J glanced my way with his serious face, so I took off my shorts and tank top, then my bra and underwear. Immediately his hands were all over me, just exploring my body, as he loves to do.

He kept saying how long it had been since we've been alone and didn't have anything else demanding our time. I agreed. We were both so obviously hot for each other.

Not much longer after that we were a tangled, sweaty, well satisfied, ball of intertwined limbs, with big grins on our faces.

The next morning J was up and out of bed before me. I smelled coffee, so I headed for the kitchen. J was in the process of making breakfast and he told me I would need my energy. I was half excited and half nervous about whatever was to come. J told me he wanted to make my birthday special and memorable. I had no doubt he would.

After breakfast we took a shower together in the huge stone shower they have. It's so big, you could comfortably fit 6 people in there. J had put one of those rubbery garden pads, that you can kneel on, on the floor of the shower. I saw him with it earlier and wondered why he had it. Now I knew. He guided me to a kneeling position by gently pressing on my shoulders. I eagerly accepted his cock into my mouth. I was able to take my time and enjoy the process without having to rush, or think about my brother coming home. It was nice. J clearly enjoyed it too.

After the shower, I air dried by laying in the sun on the back deck. It was wonderful. J told me to relax while he did some things around the house, so I got caught up on reading some magazines I brought with me and enjoyed the warm breeze on my skin.

J called me back into the house and the first thing I noticed was their large leather ottoman was now in the middle of the room and had wrist and ankle cuffs attached to the legs. There was also a bag that I didn't notice J brought with him on the floor next to the ottoman.

Without a word J guided me face down over the ottoman and placed me in all the cuffs. He reached into his bag and pulled out our cock gag with the full harness. After he placed the cock gag firmly in my mouth and fastened the buckle at the back of my head, he said happily, "It's been so long since I've had you all to myself." I nodded in agreement.

Thankfully J spanked me only with his hand. My ass is like fresh, pink, unspanked virgin ass. I haven't had regular spankings in months. Everything in that part of our life has been disrupted. It was a bit of a shock to just jump right back into things, but I could tell J was really just waiting for the first opportunity.

I was spanked without a break for just over 20 minutes. I didn't cry, but I was definitely in my own sub space. I was gently uncuffed and led to the couch where J held me. He said it wasn't over, and I nodded because I already knew that.

(to be continued...)

Weekends Free to Play!

My brother started seeing a girl a few months ago off and on, and they're to the point where he's been spending weekends at her house. So we have had the last 2 weekends to ourselves. It's been a lot of fun.

J has wanted to spend time on my submission (or lack of), especially with regard to sex. Early on Saturday J gave me a quick pussy spanking. He says he wanted to just put me in a certain mood without making it a punishment. He also let me know we were going to spend the day practicing my submission.

One of the things J has a lot of fun with is trying to make me cum on his cue. Just sort of randomly throughout Saturday he would lead me into the bedroom and tell me I was masturbate, using only my hand. His instructions were to cum when he told me to. I never do well at this game, and this past weekend was no exception.

Each time immediately after I started, J gave my pussy a few light swats. Each one reminded me of my earlier spanking. J is very familiar with how long it normally takes me to cum, but since I already had multiple orgasms it was taking me longer and longer each time. J would decide when it was long enough and would tell me to cum. When I didn't, he'd start spanking my pussy in a consistent pattern. He said he was going to spank me until I came. And he was true to his word. Every. Time. When I did reach my climaxes I came very hard. They were fantastic and exhausting at the same time.

It was a fun weekend, feeling close to J and just being able to be alone without anyone else in the house. I'm already looking forward to next weekend!