Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Last day of 2008
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Happy Holidays!
Thursday, December 18, 2008
Masturbating
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Quickie
Thursday, December 11, 2008
Quick update
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Sorry to have been away so long...
Monday, December 1, 2008
Permission
Later in the evening he pulled me into the bedroom and took me "against my will". Now before anyone worries, it's not really against my will, it's only against my will symbolically. J knows my limits and if I really felt strongly about it, he would have respected my wishes. But overall, I've given him blanket "permission" to do whatever he wants. J can read me very well and I trust him to know if something is truly wrong and act accordingly. So far, he absolutely has.
So, as I was saying, he pulled me into the bedroom and yanked my pants & underwear down, he stuffed my underwear in my mouth, spread my legs and thrust into me. We were both half dressed and half undressed. J was half on the bed and half standing over me, holding my wrists above my head. It was hot!
Right before bed he was asking for a blow job. I didn't feel like it. There was no specific reason, I just felt a little bit grumpy about it, so I protested. He threatened me with a spanking several times before I finally did it. I don't know if I have earned a pussy spanking tomorrow or not. The rule is if I refuse or am grumpy about anything sexual I will get my pussy spanked, but J didn't say anything about it. I guess I will find out on Monday after he gets home from work.
Weekend
Friday:
Friday night I got an extra long, extra hard spanking with the big rectangular wooden paddle. We have dinner plans with some of J's friends on Saturday night. His friends are ok, but their wives are idiots. I have been known to sometimes take a certain tone when I am talking to them. It's the tone that J hates. So he wanted to make sure that this spanking is fresh in my mind tomorrow night.
I was in my usual, over his knee position, on the bed. I had a big blanket wrapped around me so I would't get cold. He usually spanks me for awhile, then has me kneel up and he lectures me, then spanks some more. Tonight he still did that but he added some lecturing while he was spanking me. I think it was effective in that it forced me to focus on what was happening and not let my mind wander.
At every spanking session, J checks in with me to make sure I am still wanting this and that I feel things are working (yes and yes), and I always ask him the same things (yes and yes).
Saturday:
On Saturday we were dressed and ready to meet J's friends. Right before leaving, J told me to bend over the bed. Our bed just happens to be waist level for me, so it's very easy for me to be in this position. J sits next to me and puts one arm around my waist to hold me in position. He took my pants down and spanked me really hard with the leather slappy paddle - once on each cheek. He said that was to remind me not to use my bitchy tone with the wives tonight. I think I will remember. That paddle stings!
Update: J told me on Saturday night, after we got home, that since I was so well behaved at dinner, he would cancel my Monday night spanking, so I'm pretty glad about that. He also told me that I absolutely have to go back to the gym on Monday. If not, there is a severe punishment waiting for me.