Wearing the Collar

This was a text between J and I today.

me: Do you have an outfit preference for tonight?
J: same as yesterday but with your collar.
me:  ok
J:  In fact, your collar should go on as soon as you wake up.

Well that's new.  

This week has been full of new things for J and I. I've been meaning to blog about it, but have been so wrapped up in J.  

He has been commanding and dominant and strict, and I have been making an effort to try to go with it and step out of my comfort zone from time to time. It's been fun and exciting and scary and uncomfortable all at the same time. I always go through many emotions when fantasy becomes reality.

I have been dressing (or undressing) for J and greeting him when he gets home from work.  The anticipation of him getting home and the process of getting ready to present myself to him in a way he will love, has been energizing.  I have been wearing a collar when in J's presence, but I guess tomorrow that will be changing to all day.  I have to find out what he will say about taking off the collar to go out.

I have worn the collar once, in public, so far.  It was on a trip to the grocery store, with J, and I had a scarf on.  I'm pretty sure no one saw it, but it was nerve wracking.  It was also kind of thrilling at the same time.  I have no idea how I would explain it if I ran into someone I knew and they saw it.  

In Control

J has been so super horny the last few days, and he always acts more dominant and playful when he's like that. I think it's because he knows he doesn't have to travel as much in the next few weeks, and he's looking forward to the extra days at home.

We got to talk about all kinds of things this weekend and one of them was control. J says he really likes the control. I said I liked when he had control, too. I also told him how much I love pleasing and pleasuring him. 

We got to play a lot this weekend - we were like 2 teenagers! We haven't really had much time together lately so we were both a little pent up.

But there were also a few times where J was serious. He told me he wanted to work more on everything, including my submission to him. I agreed.

He kept me well spanked all weekend. He would just randomly spank me throughout the day. We would just be watching a movie or making lunch or something and he would gently guide me over his knee and spank me for a few quick minutes. During each spanking, he asked me if I was sure I wanted him to be in charge.  I said "yes".  He asked if I would stop fighting him on things I didn't want to do.  I said "yes", but that one is going to be hard. 

I know that normally if there's something I really don't want to do, J won't make me. He always gives in. But not this time. He said it's going to be different this time. (I do have a safe word, if it gets to be too much, though.)

An example is that he was telling me to do something and I was resisting.  

He said, "If you pull away again, I'm going to paddle you."
  
I later asked him if he really would have paddled me. He said "Absolutely."

Now that is different for him. He normally would have said no.  

He also told me to go do the dishes this morning, after breakfast. He has never said that before. He doesn't usually pay attention to my housekeeping skills (or lack thereof). I loved it.  I so much want to be a good housewife, always having all the chores done and always having a clean house.  The only reason I don't is because I get lazy. If J keeps on me to keep up with the dishes, vacuuming, dusting, etc... I'm much more likely to get them all done, and we'll both be happier.

I'm going to try really hard to just let go and go with it.  So far, it's been lots of fun. 

How can we get back to our spanking schedule?

It's been about 7 months of J's new traveling schedule, and we can't seem to find a way to get back on OUR schedule.

As soon as we start again with consistent spanking, he has to leave for a week. The disruption is unwelcome every time, and it messes up our "flow", for lack of a better word.

We have been able to play, but there just hasn't been time for the discipline side of our lives. When he is home we're usually trying to catch up with house stuff, family stuff, friend stuff. And just enjoying each other's company.

Does anyone else have this type of problem? How do you overcome it? How do you work discipline into your schedule?

Missing the Structure of Spanking

It's been so long since J and I have had any real spanking schedule or anything DD related, at all. Things just keep getting in the way.

The latest is J's job has him traveling more than normal. So far I've been able to go with him on several trips, but there's not a lot we can do in a hotel room that doesn't make noise.

I'm finding myself starting to miss the structure of having consequences. I like the routine of reminder spankings.

J has been wanting to spank me lately, but there has not been the opportunity. I did get my pussy spanked briefly a few days ago. J wanted a blow job before bed and I just wasn't in the mood. I said no, and J immediately flipped me over onto my back and hand-spanked my pussy. He reminded me of our agreement and told me I was in desperate need of a spanking.

We could start back on a schedule this week, but J has a trip coming up that I am unable to go on, so I don't want to get started back into a routine just to have to take a 2-week break again so soon. Sigh.

Did you think I fell off the face of the earth?

Nope! I'm still here.

My injuries (foot/knee) are all healed! They have been for awhile, but then things got hectic with J's business, and then we were traveling over the holidays, then we had house guests....

We haven't been on our spanking schedule in months. Mostly due to our busy schedule, guests, etc. But also I just haven't been in the right mindset for it. I can tell J is anxious to get back into things, but I think I take longer to decompress and ease our way back into it.

A few times over the past weeks and months, J did spank me, but only for a few minutes at a time and never for any serious infraction. Mostly just play.

He has given me a bedtime again. I had been staying up way too late and then sleeping late and not getting enough done during the day. So I once again have a set time to be in bed. That just started again last week. I hate having to watch the clock, though.

I will try to blog more often, but for now I'll leave you with this picture...