Back on track?

J and I didn't have much trouble getting back into the swing of things on Monday. Or I should say J didn't have much trouble. I haven't been overly resistant or anything, but I'm just not feelin it this week. I haven't really been thinking about the spankings and when J tells me it's time, I just don't feel like doing it.

Monday's spanking was not so bad; J wanted to ease back into things. But it still hurt a lot. My butt hadn't been spanked in something like 2 weeks. Wednesday's spanking was a lot harder and I was still sore on Thursday. I was also sent to the corner before the spanking, which J hadn't done for awhile. I hate standing there. I feel so restless.

Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to have a substitute spanker for when J can't do it. I wonder if it would help keep me from falling back into pure laziness when J is not around. But unfortunately none of our friends or family would be able to fill that role.