Chore Charts & Cleaning Lists

I found this site that has Chore Charts, Cleaning Lists, and other household management tools that you can print for free.

http://moneysavingmom.com/downloads/household-management-forms

I generally just make a to do list on a piece of scrap paper, but I like the organization of the forms on that site. And it lets you easily customize them to your own needs.

I showed them to J and he said they would be much easier to read than my "scribbles" that I write down on the scrap paper. I'm going to print a few tonight and see if it helps make me more organized.

I've had an easy week so far. J gives me a lot of slack when it's that time of the month. I've been keeping up with my chores, but J has crossed a few things off of my list when I haven't been feeling well, and I haven't been spanked at all.

Next week will be a different story...

Reminder Spankings

After getting reminder spankings every weekday for 2 weeks, J told me he thinks I am ready to go back to our old schedule of 3x a week.

My first reaction was relief to not be getting spanked every day. But then I started to wonder if I might actually need daily spankings to keep on the path I'm on. The past 2 weeks I feel like I've been mostly on top of things and am getting better at being submissive to J.

Maybe I need daily reminders . It puts me in a certain headspace where I feel like I'm confident in my place and what I have to do.

I'm beginning to realize I like the routine and accountability involved in our version of DD. It makes me feel safe and secure to know that someone cares about what I do and will help me be a better person, even if those ways might be unconventional.

I like to know that I am going to get spanked on certain days and at certain times, even if I haven't done anything wrong. I know some people think that it's unfair to be spanked for "no reason", but I don't see it that way at all. I see it as J knowing enough about me to know what I need, and he follows through. And I definitely need to be spanked regularly. Otherwise I just fall to pieces. Not emotionally - I'm always very happy with my life, but as far as getting things done - errands, chores, etc... I just get so lazy, I just don't do anything. The reminder spankings really help keep me on track.

I'm hoping 3 spankings a week will be enough for me to happily get my to-do lists done, and not struggle with finishing it each night. And I hope the weekly pussy spanking is enough to help me be submissive to J without any complaints or hesitation.

If anyone wants to post in the comments, or email me privately, I'd love to know what spanking schedule you have and if it's working.

I am a submissive woman

I just read this poem at the CornerTime blog. It really says a lot of how I feel about being submissive to J.

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I am a submissive woman

I find pleasure, joy, and fulfillment from being submissive

to my Husband in a loving relationship.

I am not weak or stupid. I am a strong woman,

with firm views and a clear concept of what I want out of my life.

I do not serve out of shame or weakness, but out of pride and strength.

I will look to my loving Husband for guidance and protection, for never

will I be more complete than when He is with me.

I know that He will protect my body, my mind, and my soul

with His strength and wisdom.

He is everything to me, as I am everything to Him.

His touch awakens me and His thoughts free me.

Only in serving Him do I find complete freedom and joy…

His punishments may be harsh, but I accept them thankfully,

knowing that He has my best interests always foremost in His mind.

If He desires my body for pleasure, I shall joyfully give it to Him

and take pleasure myself from knowing that I have brought Him happiness.

However, the pleasure of the flesh is but one facet of our relationship.

The love, the trust and sharing, the words spoken and felt,

those are all parts of this relationship.

My body is His, and if He says I am beautiful, then I am.

No matter what I look like to others, I am beautiful in His eyes,

and because of that I hold my head high.

If He says I am His precious jewel,

then I am that…a beautiful, sparkling gem.

If He says that I am His pet, His slut, His whore, then I am that..

as wanton and dirty as He wants me to be.

My mind is His, to expand, to explore, to know only as He can.

I have no secrets from Him… for secrets are a thing that would

keep me from being more perfectly His.

Secrets would put a wall up between my Husband and myself…

and I do not want walls.

His lessons are not always ones I would seek on my own,

but they are lessons He has decided that I need, and so I learn from Him.

My soul is His, as bare to His touch as ever my skin could be

when I kneel naked at His feet.

Never a moment goes by when I do not feel His presence,

be He miles away or standing over me.

If I were to ever displease Him, His displeasure would be a blow to my soul,

worse punishment than any lashes could be.

The anguish of my soul that I feel when I disappoint Him

is harder to bear than any physical anguish I feel.

I am grateful that he cares enough about me to spend

His time and energy so freely on me.

I have the easier job, to feel, to experience,

to let myself go and abandon everything to Him.

I am His pleasure and His responsibility, and He takes both seriously .

I am a submissive woman.

I am proud to call myself that, my submission is a gift that I do not give lightly,

and can only be given to the One who can appreciate that gift and return it tenfold.

Only to my Husband who has that strength, will I give myself fully,

because I am strong and proud.

I am a submissive woman.

~Author Unknown

Back Home and Finally Alone!

Before we left for the beach, my brother told us he's moving in with his girlfriend! He doesn't have very many belongings, so his move was quick and easy.

We are finally alone again!

While we were away J told me that we were going back to regular, reminder spankings. I was under the impression that we were going to be returning to our former schedule of 3 reminder spankings a week plus one pussy spanking. But J informed me that I'd be getting spanked every day, until further notice!

The first week was mostly spent getting back into routine. I was spanked every day Monday through Friday. Wednesday I also got a pussy spanking. I struggled a little bit during the week. I did not want to be spanked every day. And by the end of the week I was so sore!

But on the other hand, my to do list was done, plus I even had time to do EXTRA! That part was fantastic.

This week started and J said we would again have daily reminder spankings. Monday wasn't too bad, but Tuesday hurt like crazy! I am very sore from all these spankings!

Mostly J has been reminding me of why we are doing this. As much as I don't like the spankings, something is definitely working, because I have been able to complete my chores and daily to do lists with tons of extra time to spare!

Last night, right before bed, J told me to take off my clothes and lay on the bed. He started playing with my clit the way I love him to. He was asking me whose pussy it was, and I replied "yours". It was so hot. Then, right before I was about to cum, he stopped and told me to take over. I did and he spanked my pussy very hard and said CUM! I had barely just gotten my fingers in place! He then proceeded to spank my pussy really fast and hard without stopping and kept telling me to cum. I didn't cum right away, but it was much quicker than normal, and it was intense! This is definitely J's new favorite game.

Ahhhh...it's good to be back home and back on track.

Birthday Spanking Week (Part 4)

(Read Part 1 Here)

(Read Part 2 Here)

(Read Part 3 Here)

Wednesday I was woken up with kisses and flowers. They smelled so sweet and filled the whole room. While I was still laying in bed, J gave me a nice, sensual full body massage, which turned into some fantastic sex. What a wonderful way to wake up on my birthday!

We had a small breakfast and took showers, and afterwards J reached over to me and started to put on my collar & leash. He hesitated and said, "We don't have to do this if you don't want to. If you want to spend your birthday some other way."

I gave him a quick kiss and told him I was all his.

He led me out to the deck and told me to kneel. I did and he fucked my face for just a few minutes. He then led me off the deck onto the grass and had me crawl around the yard on all fours, with him pulling on the leash. We don't often do things like that, but it was exciting being outside. It's very private and no one can see us, but it still feels exhibition-like. A few times he swatted my ass, as I was crawling and I was afraid the sound would carry. But it wasn't likely anyone would be able to tell where exactly it was coming from.

We spent a lot of time outside since the weather was perfectly warm and breezy. One thing J likes to do is open my pussy lips very wide and just hold them there. It makes me feel very exposed. Every time he did that, I could feel the breeze on my clit. It was just enough so I could feel it, but too light of a sensation to do any good. It was making me want to reach down and apply the right amount of pressure so that I could cum. But when I suggested this to J, he said no.

A few hours later, we went back in the house and J said I was going to finish what was started outside. He layed on the couch and I knelt next to him. He grabbed the leash and pulled me down to him. He reached around to the back of my head and guided me right to his cock. I hesitated and he said "Open."

I opened my mouth and he easily slid in. It didn't take very long for him to cum, since he'd been on the verge for hours.

He told me we had just enough time for one more spanking, before we had to leave. He arranged me over the ottoman and gave me a nice long warm up with his hand. He then alternated between a small wooden paddle and our leather strap. He spanked me for a very long time. It felt like an hour. Since my legs were spread wide, he also had access to my pussy, and he made sure to swat there a few times with his hand, in between swats to my ass with the paddle & strap. J said he wanted to ensure I would be ready to start back to our old schedule next week.

After my spanking, J said he would like to see me make myself cum. I flipped over on the ottoman, and started rubbing my clit. J watched me for a few minutes, and then gave me a quick swat with his hand. "Cum," he commanded. I can never cum on cue, but J likes to make me try. And once he thinks it's time, he spanks my pussy, without stopping, until I do cum. My pussy was getting sore like he spanked it for hours, but I think it only took about 4 minutes!

J let me lay on the ottoman for awhile to recover while he loaded the car. Before we left, I got dressed in regular clothes, which felt really strange. J took my collar and leash off, but he said I was going to be wearing the cock gag the whole way home. I gave him an alarmed look, but he assured me that it would be dark, and no one would be able to see me. He wasn't going to buckle the strap in the back, and if we came to any well lit areas, I could remove it. Same for toll booths or if we got pulled over.

I was sad about going back home, but at the same time glad to know that next week I would be back on track and getting things accomplished. And I had such a fun birthday week, both with our friends, and after they left!