Monday, October 25, 2010

Spanking week 2

J decided this week was going to be a repeat of last week, as far as spankings go. He says I'm doing great with getting my to-do list completed, but thinks I'm still not quite as motivated as I should be. And I agree. He also upped by bedtime, just by 15 minutes for now, to help me get moving a bit earlier in the day.

So I will be spanked every day this week, plus pussy spanked 3 times, and immediately after I will give J a blow job. He says after this week if I'm back to being as motivated as I need to be, we can resume our old schedule of 3 reminder spankings a week.

We are also working on my level of sexual submission to J. I want to get back to the point where my body is available to him whenever he wants it. I used to always be game for sex, but now I just feel old and fat. I find that when the choice is made for me, I can get past any grumpy feelings I might be having and get right to the fun parts.

Over the weekend, J presented me with a pacifier that has a penis as the rubber part that goes in your mouth. We don't get into the age play scene, but as part of my submission, J will sometimes treat me like a child.

Today he told me I was to place the pacifier in my mouth before I left the house and keep it there anytime I was in the car. Of course no one can see the penis part when it's in my mouth, but they can still see a grown woman with a pacifier in her mouth! And it's not easy to hide - it's got a big, baby blue, plastic ring. Here is a picture of it:

I drove with it all the way to the Post Office and back with it securely in my mouth, and it seems like I hit every red light and a lot of traffic.
I feel like everyone saw me.
I don't even know what they thought.

Friday, October 22, 2010

4 Days of Spankings, so far

My ass is very sore from being spanked 4 days in a row. I have one more day of spanking tomorrow and then J will decide how we will proceed next week. The spankings have increased in intensity throughout the week, so I'm looking forward to the break this weekend.

I have been getting my to do lists done, but it's been a struggle; I'm just barely motivated, and find myself having to rush to get things done before I have to be in bed.
It has been nice having everything finished each day. I can go to bed knowing the house is clean and I can start the next day fresh, without anything hanging over my head.

After my spankings, J has been sending me to the corner. I am supposed to think about how these reminder spankings are keeping me motivated, and all the reasons we choose to live this way. I have a really hard time with that. My mind wanders almost instantly. And I end up thinking about everything except for what I'm supposed to be thinking about.

I have one more pussy spanking left tomorrow. That hasn't been too bad, because I've been getting a 1 day break in between. The last one for the week is tomorrow, and it'll probably be the most severe of the week, since J will want the reminder to stick with me until the next time I get a pussy spanking.

J texted me in the middle of the day today and told me to masturbate. At first I felt like I didn't have time, but it turned out to be a welcome break in my day. And who doesn't like having orgasms? lol.

I see J embracing his role again, and it makes me proud and happy to know that he's so comfortable and natural doing what's best for us.

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Back to our Spanking Routine, day 1

Promptly at 6pm, J instructed me to go to the bedroom and take off my clothes. He had already arranged many of our implements on the bed. He was clearly ready to start back up with our version of DD.

Once I was face down, J started with a brief lecture. He reminded me that I am to stay motivated to achieve my daily goals and complete my daily to do list. And if I do not, there will be consequences. He started spanking me gently, due to my not having been consistently spanked for several months. He continued the lecture saying that when he holds me accountable, he finds that he is more motivated and holds himself at a higher standard. So it is very important that we stay on track.

He also reminded me that whining will not be tolerated. If I whine, J will make sure to find something else for me to do with my mouth (with an option to also spank me).

J increased the speed and intensity of the spanking, and repeated the lecture a few more times. My ass was definitely sensitive and I was squirming and fussing. At one point J used his hand to spank me really quickly one right after the other on one cheek, and then the same on the other cheek. It made me feel a bit like a child; that's usually the way I imagine a parent spanking their kid. But I guess if I act like a child by whining, I should be treated like one.

Once J decided I had enough for the first day, he repeated the lecture and asked me if I understood (yes). I counted the last 10 swats out loud.

J then positioned me on my back, across his lap, where he had good access to my pussy. He went over my original agreement with him to never deny him sexually, unless I was ill or injured. Some people may think that might be extreme, but it really works for us. J is not demanding, and anytime I'm not in the mood, but I say yes anyway, it ends up being enjoyable and I'm glad I didn't turn him down.

He then proceeded to spank my pussy with his hand, a leather strap, and a wooden ruler he sanded down smooth, just for this purpose. He also spent some time playing with my clit. He would rub it for a few seconds and then spank it for a few seconds. It really hurts when he spanks my clit, but J always seems to know just how much I can take.

When my pussy was sufficiently pink, I was sent to the corner to think about the spankings I had just received and the reason for them.

After standing in the corner for about 10 minutes, J called me to him. He already had a pillow waiting for me (how nice!). He guided me down to my knees and placed his rock hard cock in my mouth. He also positioned a full length mirror next to us, because he wanted to watch. I tried to put on a good show for him.

I took a quick shower to rinse all the cum off of me and refresh myself. I get so tired after a spanking.

Saturday, October 16, 2010

Back on Schedule

So J told me today that it was time for me to get back on a schedule.

"What kind of schedule?"

He started with "6pm spanking"

I waited for him to say Monday, Wednesday, and Friday, because that was our schedule before.

But he continued with "every day."
Then he added, "We have a lot of catching up to do."

Eek! But he's right, I do need to get back on a regular schedule. Not just with spanking, but with everything else in my life, too. We got so busy this summer and got far away from schedules and rituals. I've been a total slacker with chores and daily tasks that need to be done.

I just can't seem to be productive unless I know there are definite consequences. Lucky for me, J is willing to provide those consequences.

We also agreed (long ago) that I would submit to J sexually. Anytime I "don't feel like it", J reminds me of our agreement. And every time, I'm glad I was reminded because I always enjoy it and feel happy that we did it. That may sound weird to some people, but it's just how I'm wired. (And I always have veto power over the whole thing if it's not working for me.)

J also added that to get me used to our arrangement, I'll be performing orally on him every day following my spanking.

I feel like J is more than ready to step back into his role of expecting me to do what I say I'm going to do, and providing the consequences when I don't. He can be strict sometimes, but it works for us.

I don't know if he's going to incorporate things like corner time, bedtimes, and other punishments back in. I expect he will. It feels like I haven't stood in a corner for eons. J didn't specifically mention pussy spankings either, but I think it's assumed that they will be resuming, as well.

I see so many relationships falling apart all around me, but J and I remain strong. I think a lot of it has to do with our version of DD. A lot of my friends don't seem to communicate very well with their spouses. J and I communicate clearly and openly all the time, and I attribute much of that to our version of DD.

I'm happy we found something that works great for us, even if we do stray away from it sometimes.

Friday, October 1, 2010